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Saturday, November 13, 2004
 You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and creativity, and usually are highly intelligent. Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.
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 Night Fairy
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 You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss that never lessens and always blows your partner away like the first time.
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 Solitude Your lyrics
How many times have you told me you love her?
As many times as I wanted to tell you the truth.
How long have I stood here beside you?
I lived through you, you looked through me.
Ooo, Solitude
Still with me is only you
Ooo, Solitude
I can't stay away from you
How many times have I done this to myself?
How long will it take before I see?
When will this hole in my heart be mended?
Who now is left alone but me?
Ooo, Solitude
Forever me and forever you
Ooo, Solitude
Only you, Only true
Everyone leaves me stranded,
forgotten, abandoned
left behind.
I can't stay her another night
Your secret admirer, who could it be?
Can't you you see all along it was me?
How can you be so blind as to see right through me?
Solitude
Still with me is only you
Ooo, solitude
I can't stay away from you
Solitude
Forever me and forever you
Ooo, Solitude
Only you, Only true
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 Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for one reason or another - possibly, you made one tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't commit. In any case, you are faithless and joyless. You find no happiness, love, or acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most days are a burden and you wonder when the hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching picture. You are the one that few understand. Those that do know you are likely to love you deeply and wish that they could do something to ease your pain. You are constantly living in memories of better times and a better world. You are hard on yourself and self-critical or self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved, you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite your tainted nature, your soul is breathtakingly beautiful.
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 Your a wind Dragon! Hey, you, the smartest dragon of the branch. You love reading and writing, but are quite shy. Your IQ is probably sky-high and your stories can win trophies. Your not very good in sports, or maybe you are, and just not interested.. You are very wise, smart, and kind.
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 You have a Calm Soul! Being calm and cool is what you do best. You collected thoughts and always positive attitude make you very bright and logical. When theres a problem, you know how to approach it, and solve it. Your friends rely on you on their problems, and your shoulder for their crying. You are peaceful, and enjoy nature and freedom. You rarely get angry and hardly scream, which makes you good with kids. You seem to be in tune with the world and if anything goes wrong, you always bounce back.
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 Angst. You are an angel of angst. Once one of water. But your depression has caused you to become an outcast. You love to be by yourself, as it helps you think. You have always, and always will wonder what has gone wrong. Your soul has been shattered, and your wings are in peices. But that's just you. You spend your days searching for something. Not someone. Though you don't know what you are looking for. You don't even remember who you are. And are always trying to find that person, yourself, your soul. Which seems to have been misplaced.
But. When you find what you are looking for, it will become clear. All tragedy will be ripped from your wings, and your true colours will show. And then, you are the most powerful of them all.
Hang on, keep looking for it is there. Just try not to loose all you hope and become nothing. For you are truly beautiful.
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 You belong somewhere out in the world, exploring and learning and spreading the knowledge that you find. When you love, that love will join you in your quest and believe as you do in a world of spiritual energy that is stronger than anything humanity could normally even conceive, although you may be able to. Council those you encounter, give them your wisdom, and stay true to yourself.
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 You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted, care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You have friends and most absolutely love you. You can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging in anger the next so no one wants to get on your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and magical.
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 Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure Angels always appear when a child is born, when a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their first kiss. They never grow old, an can appear in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold wings. Pure angels are the carriers of god, and show their love to everyone in the world.
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 Your a magical unicorn! As all unicorns go, magic unicorns are amazing with enchantments and can perform spells and all kind of crafts. Magic Unicorns have horns that if drank from can cure blindness, and give immortality. All magical unicorns are very kind and heart-warming, but can get tempermental if a spell goes wrong. Magical Unicorns live in forests where they can practise all there magic in secret. But, if a human befreinds a magical unicorn, they have a friend for life.
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 You are a human shadow. If a loved one needs you, you are always right at his or her heels! Your deep social connection with human beings produces your qualities of genuine caring and charisma. However, at times you are naive to the true nature of your loved ones. Remember that humans' gift of free will does not always lead them in wise directions. But your essence of love and friendship represent the other precious gifts of humanity. Overall you are a strikingly valuable and innocent being who has a lot to give.(please rate my quiz cuz it took me for freaking ever to create)
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 You are the Goddess of Water. You are a very loving, you show your emotions out in the open. You are full of wisdom. Also dreamy... You would rather be sleeping then awake. But are still very happy. You are most inspiration to the other Four Goddesses since without water there wouldn't be life.
Other Water Goddesses: Aphrodite, Isis, Mariamne, Mari, Tiamat, Yemaya, Ran, Kupala
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 You are the chinese element of Water. People who are under the element of Water are creative, independent and intelligent. Water you are a dreamer, but are quite vulnerable, and have hidden agendas. The color of water is black, and your symbol is the tortoise. Winter is the season in which Water shines and it's months are October/November. Your weather condition is cold. Water is the direction of north, and your day is Wednesday, while your planet is Mercury. Animals under your element are usually shelled. People under you are Turks. Your sense is hearing, your taste is salty, your sound is moaning and your virtue is knowledge. Your organs are the kidneys. You were created by Metal and control Fire.
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 ROMANTIC ONE. The really most most most important for you is that she/he is romantic. You love it to get love letters, red roses and be in a romantic atmosphere. He/She must make you think that you are the most beautiful of all. When he/she is romantic she/he has you got in his hands. When he/she tells you all that he/she feels for you ,you are devoted to him/her. At this point you are easy to be tempt. Your heart is soft and pure and you would never cheat as long as you love your partner. But if he cheats you, you are not hiding your feelings and show how much she/he hurt you because you trusted in him/her and never thought he/she could do this to you.PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always message me or tell me how I can improve that quiz. Ill sure write back.
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 Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and as many say "Your head is in the clouds."
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 You are a Siren. More adventurous than all with a voice like no other you sit on warm rocks and sing to the moon and sea. Yet sometimes shipwrecks find you and raving men want you. You are a bottle of talent and power. What the unknown is you seek to find, and a lover. You have the moon and stars as freinds. There are a very few of you, what a rare find. Will you rate my quiz, I think your voice in just beautiful?
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 You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people feel that they have known you their entire life. Many often open up to you for they view you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although people trust you, you have a hard time trusting them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled up inside, or display them very quietly. It is alright to open up every once in a while.
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 Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but its there, and your friends can see it. You constantly feel alone, and need to do things to fill your time. Your afraid to tell people this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad way, and you think you screwed up everything. And when you are in love is when you are sad the most. (Please Vote)
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 Your Heart is Blue
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 You are WILD AND CRAZY KIDS. You couldn't get through life without a little fun... or a neon colored t-shirt. You are a team player and really into Omar Gooding. GO YOU!
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 -Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're the kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy being around your boyfriend.
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 You're Element is Wind. You're light-hearted, care-free, kind, sensitive, and mysterious. You have friends and most absolutely love you. You can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging in anger the next so no one wants to get on your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and magical.
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 cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be close to your special someone and feel warm, comfortable, and needed
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 Peace. You Truly Desire Peace. Just relaxing somewhere calm with a light breeze against your cheecks is our ideal of pefect. You don't like to start fights, but instead, end them without using violence.
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 Love. You Truly Desire Love. You long for someone to hold you and take the pain away. You haven't been in much relationships or you need to work on how to handle them. You always seem lost in a daydream about the person you care about most.
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 You belong in the land of darkness, otherwise known as one of the worlds in which I dwell. All here is beauty inspired by tragedy and great sorrow. Write or go through other creative outlets to express the anguish you may be feeling, and never let anyone tell you that you are just being 'weepy' or full of 'teenage angst'(if you're a teenager.If not, then they really should be punished for calling you one. They probably are trying to insult your maturity...fools.)and always remain yourself, dark and amazing. Never change.
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 You are Form 1, Goddess: The Creator.
"And The Goddess planted the acorn of life. She cried a single tear and shed a single drop of blood upon the earth where she buried it. From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into the world."
Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek), Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian).
The Goddess is associated with the concept of creation, the number 1, and the element of earth.
Her sign is the dawn sun.
As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic individual and people are drawn to you. Although sometimes you may seem emotionally distant, you are deeply in tune with other people's feelings and have tremendous empathy. Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your own self. Goddesses are the best friends to have because they're always willing to help.
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 You are a human shadow. If a loved one needs you, you are always right at his or her heels! Your deep social connection with human beings produces your qualities of genuine caring and charisma. However, at times you are naive to the true nature of your loved ones. Remember that humans' gift of free will does not always lead them in wise directions. But your essence of love and friendship represent the other precious gifts of humanity. Overall you are a strikingly valuable and innocent being who has a lot to give.(please rate my quiz cuz it took me for freaking ever to create)
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 You have a Calm Soul! Being calm and cool is what you do best. You collected thoughts and always positive attitude make you very bright and logical. When theres a problem, you know how to approach it, and solve it. Your friends rely on you on their problems, and your shoulder for their crying. You are peaceful, and enjoy nature and freedom. You rarely get angry and hardly scream, which makes you good with kids. You seem to be in tune with the world and if anything goes wrong, you always bounce back.
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 You represent... naivete.
So innocent and trusting... you can be very shy at times, but it's only because you're not sure how to act. You give off that "I need to be protected vibe." Remember that not all people are good. Being too trusting will get you easily hurt.
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If you haven't figured it out by now, I have a new blog site. Go HERE dammit!
~Kate
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Saturday, August 14, 2004
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Friday, August 13, 2004
Arlin, you're getting your way. I'm moving to LiveJournal. People, I promise this will be the last time I move. The livejournal site will be up in a couple of days, at which point, I will post the link here. Finally, a site with no ads!
Posted at 09:33 pm by Kate
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Friday, August 06, 2004
Happiness and Bliss are two completely different things
And yet, though they may be different, they can be experienced together, and sometimes hard to distinguish. Right now, I'm not sure which I'm experiencing.
All I know is that I am in a good mood. Except for the fact that I seem to have misplaced my cellphone. But, I'm hoping to find it when I get back in the city. I have a strange feeling that it's hiding somewhere in my house.
The demons which I was trying to deal with earlier are gone. Well, maybe not gone, but pushed back for a while. Which means I can be me, without holding back, if only for a little while.
Though I am happy, I know I have friends that are not so much as me. To my dearest of Illyanths: I know you are hurting, but you will be back with us soon. And I have a movie for us to watch together.
So, I'm back in town on tuesday. I'll probably post once more before then, if not more. Hope everyone has an awesome weekend!
Posted at 11:07 pm by Kate
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It's been a long time since I updated. I do have news, I just don't seem to have any time to update. Well, maybe tomorrow night, while I'm sitting bored at the farm. In any case, I promise to update with everything by wednesday! And by the way, I'm not depressed right now. In fact, I'm the opposite. So don't worry about a downer post!
Posted at 04:32 pm by Kate
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Thursday, July 29, 2004
So, this weekend is the annual TRL gathering. The way it works is, people go out to the ring lords for the weekend, camp in tents on his field, and spend the days doing chainmaille and talking and such. Now, every good camper knows that you should take your tent out and set it up before you actually go, just to check for anything that could be wrong with it. So, I set my tent up to dicover a tear at the top, in between two of the tent poles. Nothing really serious, but enough to let a lot of bugs in. So, I figured I should fix it. I go into the house to get a piece of cloth and attempt to sew it on. No dice. The cloth that I'm trying to sew into is mesh, not good. So, I go into the house to try and find crazy glue. Mom said glueing it would work. Problem=no glue. Now, I'm sitting outside on the grass, trying to figure out what would work. It's getting dark, and I need to hurry, cause the tent needs to come down before nightfall. So, I walk into the house, and whats the first thing I see? Duct tape. Perfect! So, I finish that, roll the tent up and put it away. Now, I still have to make my bed roll, and pack my backpack. But that can wait till morning. So, tonight is talking to people, and watching movies. I'm almost happy again. Almost. I don't know whats wrong still, at least not completely. But I do know that I need to deal with a few demons...on my own. But, I'll go on, hiding my feelings and pretending I'm happy happy. Maybe one day I won't have to hide that stuff. Doubt it though. Five years ago, I lost a little piece of my heart. Five years ago, he left. Today, I feel him watching me.
Posted at 10:07 pm by Kate
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Monday, July 26, 2004
Whats going through my head right now.
He sits there, writing about how much he loves her, and how blind she is to it, when right now, I could say the exact same thing about him. Mike, read your last post, and pretend that its me saying it. Now, think about it.
Posted at 12:04 am by Kate
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Friday, July 23, 2004
Coma White by Marilyn Manson There's something cold and blank Behind her smile She's standing on an overpass In a miracle mile
Cause you were from a perfect world A world that threw me away today, today, today To run away
A pill to make you numb A pill to make you dumb A pill to make you anybody else But all the drugs in this world Won't save her from herself
Her mouth was an empty cut She was waiting to fall Just bleeding like a poloroid That lost all her dolls
Cause you were from a perfect world A world that threw me away today, today, today To run away
A pill to make you numb A pill to make you dumb A pill to make you anybody else But all the drugs in this world Won't save her from herself
A pill to make you numb A pill to make you dumb A pill to make you anybody else But all the drugs in this world Won't save her from herself
You were from a perfect world A world that threw me away today, today, today To run away
A pill to make you numb A pill to make you dumb A pill to make you anybody else But all the drugs in this world Won't save her from herself
A pill to make you numb A pill to make you dumb A pill to make you anybody else But all the drugs in this world Won't save her from herself
As You Sleep by Something Corporate Close your eyes, and I will be swimming Lullaby's fill your room, and I will be singing Singing to only you Don’t forget I'll hold your hand Watch the night sky fading red
But as you sleep, and no one is listening I will lift you off your feet, I'll keep you from sinking Don't you wake up yet, cause soon I'll be leaving you Soon I'll be leaving you, but you won't be leaving me
In the car, the radio leaves me searching for your star A constellation of frustration driving hard Singing my thoughts back to me, and watching heartache on TV
But as you sleep, and no one is listening I will lift you off your feet, I'll keep you from sinking Don't you wake up yet, cause soon I'll be leaving you Soon I'll be leaving you, but you won't be leaving me
Don't forget I'll hold your hand, watch the night sky fading red
But as you sleep, and no one is listening I will lift you off your feet, I'll keep you from sinking Don't you wake up yet, cause soon I'll be leaving you Soon I'll be leaving you, but you won't be leaving me
Why Should I Care by Diana Krall Was there something more I could have done? Or was I not meant to be the one? Where's the life I thought we would share? And should I care?
And will someone else get more of you? Will she go to sleep more sure of you? Will she wake up knowing you're still there? And why should I care?
There's always one to turn and walk away, And one who just wants to stay. But who said that love is always fair? And why should I care?
Should I leave you alone here in the dark, Holding my broken heart? While a promise still hangs in the air- And why should I care?
Fear by Switchblade Symphony
I see the children, I see all their scars I fear the monsters that don't know who they are
When did this all start? When did I fall apart? When did this all start? When did I fall apart?
I am too frightened to open my door I can't stop shaking as I drop to the floor
When did this all start? When did I fall apart? When did this all start? When did I fall apart?
Can you hear me? Can you help me? Can you hear me now?
Can you hear me? Can you help me? Can you hear me now?
My hands, unfaithful, did not protect me My voice, transparent, when I need it to scream What really happened during those nights? I could not move so I just turned off inside
When did this all start? When did I fall apart? When did this all start? When did I fall apart?
Can you hear me? Can you help me? Can you hear me now?
Can you hear me? Can you help me? Can you hear me now?
Hear me now...
Panic Attack by Finger Eleven Thought I could fake this thing alright Thought it could somehow get me by Watching the doctors as they slide Needles into my eye
Thought I could finally get around Laughable symptoms keep me down Faces I see all keep me blind And now they’re redemption’s mine
Now that I can’t exchange actions for words Now that I found these inside fears the worst Now that I know there’s no place left to hide Can I become all I thought I might
As the leaders who follow the path of whoever was standing round them Call to say what I’m missing and into a detail they always go Don’t believe them but offer condolences under the circumstances All too often I’m missing the spirit to fit in so call me out
Thought I could soundly sleep tonight Positive clear and breathing right Panic attacks, panic attacks me now Seems like a fair redemption
Tomorrow by Avril Lavigne And I Wanna Believe You When You Tell Me That It Will Be Okay Ya, I Try To Believe You But I Don't
When you say that it's gonna be It always turns out to be a different way I try to believe you Not today, today, today, today, todaaay
[chorus] I don't know how I'll feel Tomorrow (tomorrow) Tomorrow (tomorrow) I don't know what to say Tomorrow (tomorrow) Tomorrow is a different day
Its always been up to you It's turning around, it's up to me I'm gonna do what I have to do Just don't
Give me a little time Leave me alone a little while Maybe its not too laaate Not today, today, today, today, todaaay
[chorus] I don't know how I'll feel Tomorrow (tomorrow) Tomorrow (tomorrow) I don't know what to say Tomorrow (tomorrow) Tomorrow is a different day
Hey, yeah, yeah Hey, yeah, yeah And I know I'm not ready Hey, yeah, yeah Hey, yeah, yeah Maybe tomorrow Hey, yeah, yeah Hey, yeah, yeah I'm not readyy Hey, yeah, yeah Hey, yeah, yeah Maybe tomorrow
And I wanna believe you When you tell me that it will be okay Ya, I try to believe you Not today, today, today, today, today Tomorrow it may change Tomorrow it may change Tomorrow it may change Tomorrow it may change...........
Unwanted by Avril Lavigne All... i did was walk over Start off by shaking your hand That's how it went I had a smile on my face and I sat up straight
Oh, yeah, yeah I wanted to know you I wanted to show you
[chorus] You don't know me Don't ignore me You don't want me there You just shut me out! You don't know me Don't ignore me If you had your way You'd just shut me up.
Make me go away...
(I'm so unwanted)
No, I just don't understand, why you won't talk to me
It hurts... that I'm so unwanted for nothing Don't talk words against me
I wanted to know you I wanted to show you
[chorus] You don't know me Don't ignore me You don't want me there You just shut me out You don't know me Don't ignore me If you had your way You'd just shut me up Make me go away Make me go away
I tried to belong It didn't seem wrong My head aches Its been so long I'll write this song If that's what it takes Yeah
[chorus (2x)] You don't know me Don't ignore me You don't want me there You'd just shut me out You don't know me Don't ignore me If you had your way You'd just shut me up
Make me go away Make me go away Make me go away...
Posted at 05:34 pm by Kate
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Thursday, July 22, 2004
Ok, ok. I know this whole depressing writing shit is probably getting very annoying, but right now, I don't know what is going on. I like this one guy, but, he's in like with someone else, and it seems like thats never gonna change. So, whatever. I'm happy single, and I'm not looking for a relationship right now. But then, I think I like someone else, when I know it's only because I think he's cute. Therefore, this cannot be considered a crush. And yet, being in a crowd of people, I feel unwanted. So, don't get me wrong. I know there's people who care about me. I know that. But it seems like everyone's lives are moving forward, and I'm standing still, in the middle of it all. I want to join in, but I don't know how, or if it's even possible for me right now. Don't go thinking that this is a cry for help, or any shit like that. Just know, if I'm not talking, it's for a reason. If I don't look happy, it's because I don't actually know if I am or not right now. And if I look a little too happy, it's probably fake. If you have a problem with me like this, deal with it. This is not a time to change myself for someone else. I won't do it. I'm not going to act happy just because your having a bad day and need cheering up. I'm not going to go on like everythings okay, especially if I don't know whether or not it is right now. And no, I don't want to talk about it. I want to think about it. When I'm ready to talk I will. SO DON'T ASK. Unless you want me more than pissed off at you.
Posted at 12:57 am by Kate
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Tuesday, July 20, 2004
Wow. Best night in a while.
Ok, so this is going to be really really short, cause otherwise I'll fall asleep at the keyboard. I went out for coffee with Arlin and Jess tonight. And yeah. Best night I've had in a long time. So, simply, thanks guys. It meant a lot to me, and I needed it. *hugs*
Posted at 03:05 am by Kate
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I usually smile...honestly
My name is Kate
Friends call me Kat
Or, when my parents are angry at me, Katrina
I am 18, and I live in Saskatoon
Good luck finding that, unless your a Canuck.
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